August 10, 2011
“Because You Believed In Me”
Saw this today on a cheesy record at work
As I swept the floor,
Gliding between the stacks of books
Breathing their dust and previous lovers.
Their stories every day are the very air I breathe.
Perhaps it’s some of why writing has been impossible lately.
Too many stories.
Too much to tell, to say
And processing, yes, helps, but takes time.
But as this day has rolled on, as they do,
All I can think of is
“Because You Believed In Me”
I burn and my eyes can’t help but weep as I realize
There is not only one person I could write this about.
You have always been the champion
For someone who lost
LOST the two who most loved her in one blow,
This is a revelation.
Too long have I relived my past year,
Husband and almost best friend leaving me for each other,
Hateful things said when before was nothing but devoted adoration.
What kind of person drives someone so close irrevocably far away?
How could I not question what sort of creature I had become?
Loss this year has been my constant companion.
Not just of the two of them, but also of myself.
I claim it back now. Who tries to tear me away again is a sadistic fool.
Owning this, all of it, warped me into what should have always been.
Here is a being who has something….something her world craves
Something her people need.
It’s not simply because you believed.
It is because finally I do too.
And those floors I swept while sighing and weeping over an old record album title
Have never been brighter.
A Burd in Flight 