Flits

Time does, it flits and wobbles around and changes on a whim. I’ve thought for days and days now that I need to post to my blog, then get stuck on what to write about.

Most evenings during the work week I’m worn out after the day of peopleing and move across the room to my sleeping area, just to spend a few hours watching a show or reading. It’s quiet. I’m content. But doesn’t make for incredible experiences to write about, unfortunately.

I’ve started walking again, getting up at 5:45am so I can walk at least 30 minutes before the sun rises. It’s the same routine, Lil Miss Squish the house panthers comes to walk back and forth by my shoulder until I wake, bumping my hand or chin and doing her chirpy chirps. She’s gotten really affectionate finally, well a lot for her. She still is a cat and only allows it if she thinks of it first.

I wake giggling at her and rush through waking and pinning my hair up and getting dressed to sweat in 82F 99% humidity grossness. It’s like trying to breathe a wet wool blanket.

But it’s freeing to crunch my sneakers across the driveway and smile and greet the bats in the morning before humanity stirs much. It’s the city so there is human noise all the time, but right before sunrise it’s as if the world allows herself to rest just a bit. So she takes deep breaths and the bats whir overhead with their chirrups at one another and I stride down the sleepy road.

So I’m glad my walks are back, I’d missed them. Not sure why I stopped other than laziness and my usual aversion to crossing paths with other people. It disturbs my peace. I’m most at peace when I’m not being looked at, and before the sun rises I can feel invisible, unless I pass another walker. Which ruins everything for a few moments, admittedly. But not so much I’d stop walking.

Started cutting out animal products, following a more whole foods vegetarian diet. My usual diet had me at a standstill with getting healthier and this so far has been a positive change. I feel lighter in so many ways, less bloated all over, almost like my soul is lighter even if the scale is the same. Mind clearer, more energy, all positive changes so far. Will stick with it. Avoiding sugar, processed foods as well. Every meal has a really nice balance, for instance tonight was a bowl of fresh kale, slow cooked red beans, quinoa, and half an avocado. Followed with fresh strawberries and frozen grapes. I’m stuffed and happy.