Crumbling cliff’s edge before me, yet another precipice hard fought for another fright that makes my feet tingle so strongly I feel I’m tiptoeing through clouds and all I’m doing is standing here
Alone
Wolf
Howling under my breath so as not to shake the boulders from the sides because if I do they’ll tumble and crash and I realize
This pain is like an echo
Sending my arms flailing grabbing trying to hold onto something that is no longer mine and I can’t
Let
Go
Because it feels disloyal and I’m awash in your pain, the same I caused you, the one that’s stabbing so deep I’m drowning and choking on the words you said and I can’t stop repeating them and my throat burns so even though I’m under water and all
I hear is my bubbled breath but it sounds like your voice
And you’re the echo of pain I felt when my parents turned their backs and now all I’m doing is sobbing for you again when I said I never would and I told you this is a love you don’t recover from and I know that theirs is too but I’m dead I’m gone and buried and they don’t even like me anymore, not me the adult but me the child and the me I’ve become proud of
At
Last
And they’ll never see it because their eyes can’t speak the language I write and they choose their blindness reading the words leaking out of me that were inspired by their own and when I talk I hear their voices and yours and now again I’m worthless spit upon yet wishing I was just close enough for you to do it again
And it’s echoing all around the sides of this cliff with sky all around it steeper than I can climb and deeper than I can swim and I have to face it alone this time knowing that they will never hear my true voice and
I might as well have been muted
But now I scream.
A Burd in Flight 