I kept at it, my palm sticky and wet red, Grabbing again and again, until I changed hands, My right my left The wounds grew jagged and wept and dried black On the edges. I’d been doing this a long time now, Even though the flower had thrown me away she was the one whoContinue reading ““But she who dares not grasp the thorn, should never crave the rose.” ― Anne Bronte”
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Because why not
I haven’t felt pretty in ever so long. Months and months. She knew how to make me feel pretty and loved, and voiced so many words of adoration almost every day that now I wonder if those too are a lie. I wonder if she was wrong and so am I and I’m a monsterContinue reading “Because why not”
The love of my life
She was. So much of me still believes she is, and will always be. As much as I’m sobbing now missing her I was sobbing when I was with her. She really tried. She did. So hard. She gave herself as much as she could. I don’t blame her for the things she bore beforeContinue reading “The love of my life”
Didn’t have a chance in hell
Crumbling cliff’s edge before me, yet another precipice hard fought for another fright that makes my feet tingle so strongly I feel I’m tiptoeing through clouds and all I’m doing is standing here Alone Wolf Howling under my breath so as not to shake the boulders from the sides because if I do they’ll tumbleContinue reading “Didn’t have a chance in hell”
Darkest mirror, yes, I still miss her
I’m not calling names or pointing fingers. Honestly, I know very damn clearly that all of us have narcissistic traits. Every one of us. This article helped me come to terms with still missing her now and then, my Stardust. Because in her shined the things I loved most about myself. As much as IContinue reading “Darkest mirror, yes, I still miss her”
Barbed girl
I started this while still living in Idaho with my wifey. Before I left my future and everything else we were building. Leaving behind that anchoring thought, leaving her, I never wanted. Until I realized that I was making a choice between being near my son as he grew into manhood and being with someoneContinue reading “Barbed girl”
Because You Believed
August 10, 2011 “Because You Believed In Me” Saw this today on a cheesy record at work As I swept the floor, Gliding between the stacks of books Breathing their dust and previous lovers. Their stories every day are the very air I breathe. Perhaps it’s some of why writing has been impossible lately. TooContinue reading “Because You Believed”
I am the skies before the rain
I am the skies before the rain, sticky sweet as an unexpected kiss, I cling to you like sweat on skin, hugging you close with breath hot, my teeth on the back of your neck, my nails deep inside you. I am the anticipation of wet earth, the smell that makes your eyes close inContinue reading “I am the skies before the rain”
Tonight I miss you
And the virus doesn’t scare me anymore because I’m already drowning in my snot crying missing you knowing I’ll never see you or feel your energy your eyes your hands and I can’t breathe again I’m drowning because what are the years ahead of me if you are not there I don’t want them andContinue reading “Tonight I miss you”
Your Whore
It all makes sense now.How unhappy you always were, though you never saw it.How little you trusted me, even when you said otherwise.You thought I was a whore from the beginning.I should have known when you flipped out on me for texting your friend to check on you.You had just spent the evening and earlyContinue reading “Your Whore”
A Burd in Flight 